Oddities

Passing through...

2009-09-15T11:46:00.002+08:00

I'm in school. Been in the Probim room since recess, updating the YE stuffs for Yvonne and then Sarah activated the WiFi so I'm online as well. Cikgu Suhaimi shoo-ed the kids out of class saying that 4 Cekal's gonna have their BM presentation soon. Hah. Lucky me. So I'm alone without Mie or Sarah :( but its okay coz I can skip the Koperasi thingy downstairs and do some blogging instead. I like my own layout (perasan) coz its cool (its a fact). Its too late to go down so my BM teacher who just came it had to make to with my presence. She's kinda irritated I think. Sorry. I can here the Form 4s shouting in the Dewan from here. Beatrice and Steffi's laughing at their comps behind me.

Donno what else to write about. I miss my blog. Long time no update. I miss chatting with Izzaty. Raya's a week away. My baju kurung's a deep blue. Kinda sophisticated. Love my new shoes especially. Still haven't cleaned house for raya. Kuih raya not bought. Who cares. My spelling must've sucked coz I'm typing real quickly and clumsily too. I think Kanye's a b**** for taking away the mic from Taylor. So damn rude.

Wonder what time is it now. Who cares. I've checked MySpace just now, now I'm on Facebook. Now I'm playing the stupid SuperPets and Pet Society. Why oh why. I'm so boring.

YEZ

2009-09-06T14:37:00.000+08:00

Alright... This is the BEST skin so far... No potatoes.. Haha.. Well, I'm tired, so..

OUT.

Heh

2009-08-31T13:47:00.001+08:00

Get Your Cyborg Name

Headache

2009-08-29T12:21:00.002+08:00

Aaaarghhh... I wanna cut my hair... You know what, maybe I just wanna go bald... Pretend that each strand of my hair are all the stupid responsibilities... Then, take a pair of scissors and slice it all off my head. Oh the FREEDOM.. But it won't happen... It never will. I wish it will. I'm gonna change my blog URL to something else.

Please

2009-08-26T09:52:00.001+08:00

I WANT A NEW HAIRCUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

End.

Lala

2009-08-23T22:12:00.001+08:00

Mm. Changed blogskin. Looks dull. And about the potatoes, ignore that. I ain't a potato lover. It just came with the skin and I'm too lazy to edit it. Whateverlah. Now, I'm off to layan Facebook. Chioux.

Food

2009-08-09T20:55:00.003+08:00

You know what, I have a craving for the Girl Guides cookies (2008), the thin mint cookies. I tell you, my auntie in Singapore bought them for Raya last year and I finished half the box. Sedaap gilee....

As I type this, I'm looking for that minty chocolatey cookie recipe. AND, I found it! Woohoo! Here it is:

Ingredients: Yields 6 servings
• 1/2 box of crushed Thin Mints Girl Scout Cookies
• 1 box of brownie mix
• 2 eggs (3 eggs for cake-like brownies)
• 1/4 cup of water
• 1/2 cup of vegetable oil
Directions:
Crush Thin Mints into medium size chunks. Mix all
ingredients into mixing bowl. Do not use electric mixer
— batter will be stiff. Spread batter evenly in greased
baking pan (13 x 9 x 2 inch). Bake in center of oven at
350 degrees for 30 to 35 minutes. Allow to cool before
cutting. Serve with mint-flavored tea.

YEAHHH!!!

Yoda yoda

2009-08-08T21:54:00.002+08:00

I felt light-headed... Now I'm sober again. Drunked? Maybe. Too much tea with high sugar content. I feel sick.

Aaah

2009-08-08T21:53:00.001+08:00

8th August 2009: I lost my mind and rationality.
9th August 2009: Will I get it back?
10th August 2009: I need my drug.... Badly.....

What

2009-08-08T21:48:00.003+08:00

Azfar Fairuz Mimie Sarah

Izzaty Eena Azura Faris

Fadzrain Nisa Fawrah Tuty

Fatima Janani Ayu Hafiz

Lalalalala

Whacked Out...

2009-08-08T20:14:00.001+08:00

Imagine: Living On Venus' Edge: Acquiring Zest For Appreciative Reasons...

What the hell....

Eurghhh...

2009-08-04T14:41:00.005+08:00

"I'm sorry but I have to take you off my list," she said, as I was buying keropok lekor at the canteen yesterday after school. I stared at her, processing what she said. Duh, I know why. She told me it wasn't their fault, they just wanted the best for me, and if anything had happened to me they wouldn't forgive the school, yeah yeah it would disapoint me but I must know that in the end it is them that I owe, I'm lucky to have them yoda yoda.... I just nodded and nodded and nodded. I told her I understand. I listened to her reasons for a few minutes, then said thanks, turned away and walked out. I couldn't help feeling crushed. I knew I wouldn't be a Queens Guide. Let alone a good girl guide. But its okay. I did cried a little out of frustration but what's the use. I doesn't matter now. I mean, what mattered was the experience. I learnt a lot. That's what's important. Not the title, or the rows of badges that would have taken my whole life plus the need to sacrifice my social life to get. So what if I won't meet the Queen. So what if I won't get the tiny badge that all die hard girl guiders would kill for. I don't mind. At least I tried, even if I fail. I tried. I don't have to be all moody and cranky to the others. Its not their fault. They don't know what I feel like right now. I didn't tell them. I'll just pretend to be happy like always and soon I'll forget about it. I'll be fine. I will.

Next topic. Went swimming with my darling baby sis Zahara yesterday evening. I was doing my homework (what a miracle, if you know what I mean) when my mum said, "Bawaklah Zahara turun jalan-jalan, kesian dia boring duduk terperap kat rumah,". Then my dad said, "Let's take her for a swim,". So, I just went down, with the intention of accompanying my dad and the maid and the baby and nothing else. My dad already changed into his shorts. I thought he was gonna swim too. In the end, after watching my dad stuff the kid onto the ring float and just moving it side to side, front and back at the edge of the pool, I volunteered to go into the pool to let her have real fun. This is the adult pool we're talking about, not the babies. So, wearing a sweatshirt, long pants and tudung, I just went into the pool. I played with the miniature drama queen, letting her explore the whole pool. She was magnifique. Splashing and kicking her way, it was as if she was trying to paddle herself. I slowly release my hold from the float, and soon she was holding herself on it. My dad was so over protective of her (as he always is and always will be protective of us) that he wouldn't let me let her go from the float. Being the reckless sister that I am, I brought her far from my dad's sight and turned her to face me, with my back towards my dad. I told her to hold the float tight, and then I let go of her. She was perfect. She held onto the float herself, as I watched. Occasionally I would have to hold her again when she lets go. But she was great. She has talent to swim, that girl. Unafraid of deep waters, in fact loving it.

After half an hour, we went back home upstairs. I was drenched without a towel, but the little angel was snug in my dad's arm with her pink towel. Gave her a warm bath before I had my own shower. Then she was dressed in her pj's by her maid. My mom gave her her milk and soon she was leaning on my mom's shoulders as mom held her tight. She clung onto my mom, slowly drifting away. She's so beautiful. Long fluttery eyelash, huge bright eyes, cute pouty mouth. She'll grow up to be a beautiful girl.

She went back home to her mom this afternoon while I was in school. I'm so gonna miss her. She couldn't talk or walk the last time I saw her months ago, and last week when she came to stay she was already walking, but still unable to shake off crawling. And she's already talking like a miniature drunk, not making any sense in her baby words. How time flies. She is soooo unlike me as a baby. And I hope she'll never be like me.

That's all for today and yesterday's post.

Sunway Sales

2009-08-02T21:14:00.002+08:00

Heh. Went to the YE Sales at Sunway yesterday. Best giler. Gilerrrrrr. RRR... =.="

Nway, aku bangun pukul 5 pagi and mandi lama-lama (seperti biasa), dalam 45 minit cenggitu baru aku menghirup udara segar dari luar toilet. Aku pergi sekolah dalam pukul 6.30 pagi gitu and ramai-ramai kita bertolak tepat pada jam 7 pagi. Dalam bas aku conquer dua seat seperti biasa sebab bontot aku dah semakin besar. Aku suka dok sengsorang cos aku tak payah gaduh ngan sesapa nak rule seat tepi tingkap. Aku dok depan Faris so sambil aku dengar lagu kat phone, aku dengarlah mamat tu bebel-bebel sengsorang. Mimie and Sarah dok together-gether belakang Azfar. (Aku, Amir, Faris and Aqil conquer dua seat masing-masing dalam bas).

Sampai je situ dah rasa high. Apa taknye, tempat tu gelap lagi, takde shoppers lagi. Best gila, macam we got the whole mall to ourselves. Dah sampai kat tapak jual tu, mulalah kita ramai-ramai start susun backdrop, susun product, all that... And bila first shift dah start, aku, Sarah, Mimie, Faris, Aqil and Azfar start jalan-jalan cari breakfast. Alang-alang dah diberi voucher Pizza Hut kat bas tadi, baik gunakan, ye tak. So you all taulah apa kita makan untuk breakfast. Dah kenyang tahap perut memboyot tuh, kitorang tengok orang pro-pro show off kat ice skating ring tu. Terel-terel semua.

Dah puas jalan-jalan tuh, kitorang naik tingkat paling atas and beli tiket movie. Memula aku kecoh nak tengok cerita hantu, Skrip 77brapebanyak7 tapi Sarah nak tengok cerita pertunangan, and Mimie ngan Faris nak tengok cerita musuh awam pulak. Azfar diri tercongok je tengok poster-poster tuh dengan muka mengantuk. Last-last, kitorang beli tiket tengok cerita The Proposal. Best gak. Nasib baik dalam panggung wayang tu aku, Mimie and Sarah dok belakang Azfar, Aqil and Faris. Aku tak sanggup tengok beberapa babak dalam movie tu bila ada guy kat belakang aku. Oh tidaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Next, we went to the bowling place. Tapi tak bowl sebab diorang kata mahal. So we just jalan-jalan sampai dah shift aku and Sarah. Kitorang jadi promoter. Baper kali tah aku ibaratkan bercakap sengsorang in public. Takpelah. And ada satu masa, aku cuba attract customer kat booth Svian, ada mamat sempat mintak number aku lagi. Sipot.

Dah abis shift, aku, Sarah and Faris pergi bowling. Dapat gak aku main. Woo! Best! Mimie last shift, so lagi meriah shift dia. Time-time petanglah tempat tu ramai orang. Lucky her.

Last, kitorang balik kol 8 pm lebih.

Well, gotta go. Chow.

All the king's horses and all the king's men... Wait.. What the hell..

2009-07-30T21:16:00.002+08:00

Ahh. After eons of not posting anything, I finally typed something. Writer's block, is it? Whatever. My head feels like cracking open this few weeks. My Add Maths test was a couple of days ago, and I managed to answer only question 2.a out of four bloody question. I think, I could answer a marriage proposal waaaay better than that test from hell. But hey, I don't care. Phbbt. Its just a test.

This Sat is bound to be great (I hope) coz the Y.E. sales is gonna be held at *drum roll* Sunway Pyramid!!!! Wooo!!! We gonna go to the movies when its not our shift. Tu je yang aku excited, sebenarnya. Yes, lame, I know. But heck. Lame is me. I am lame. Lame lame lamey lamey lame. Laaaaaaammmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Shoot.. My mind is incorrect for the ~~day~~ week. Corrupted and a little unwell. Oh shucks. Whatever.

P.S: I'm lovin him more and more after that.

In the mood to post nothing

2009-06-04T17:11:00.002+08:00

Felt like posting Demi Lovato's song Don't Forget on my blog. Haha. So here it is:

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything you ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me?

Did you regret (did you regret)
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget (did you forget)
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left
To forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget it
Please don't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us...

Babeng

2009-06-02T22:40:00.002+08:00

Aku s.t.r.e.s.s. gila. Banyak gila kerja yang belum dibuat, tak sempat dibuat, perlu dibuat, patut dibuat dan nak dibuat. Pastu ada banyak meeting yang aku kena hadir time cuti ni. Pandu Puteri ngan Y.E. tuh. Paling banyak kerja is Pandu Puteri. Takpe ah. Lepas ujian Permit Perkhemahan, aku free sikit kot. SIKIT kot. Y.E. memang sah ah takkan free sampai lepas bulan Ogos kang. Pn. Lim pun dah agak disapointed ngan we all. Tak commitedlah, malaslah, tak seriouslah, etc. Aku lah tu. Sedih ah. Takpe takpe. Try lagi (cakap je tapi belum tentu cuba). Then, as if benda-benda nih tak cukup membebankan kepala otak aku, ada pulak timbul isu-isu merimaskan yang biasanya timbul di kalangan chromosome XX, iaitu 'kita bengang kat awak pasal sekian sekian sekian...' and 'kita tak suka awak pasal sekian skian sekian...'. Adehh... Dahlah orang banyak gaduh ngan aku time-time camni. Ok, aku blur, lembap, slow, emo, etc, tapi tu masalah aku, kan. Bukan kau. And kalau aku blur pun, aku rasa, kau tak susah pape, sebab kalau kau musykil apape, kau boleh tanya orang lain yang 10x ganda lagi bijak dari aku. Kan? Kalau kau dah tau aku memang takleh diharap, tak payahler harapkan aku. Aku rasakan, nasib kau memang malang sebab landing ngan aku yang blur and emo. Padan muka. Aku rasa aku bertuah sebab aku boleh spread badi blurblur aku kat kau. Kau pulak, kena derita menahan sabar ngan aku selama beberapa hari.

Anyway, topik seterusnya. Aku rasa macam badan aku makin kepeng sebab aku dah lama tak makan bersungguh-sungguh. Asyik taksub bukak MySpace maen Superpets (yeah, lame, I know, but SHUT UP) sampai lupa nak makan. Apape ah. Bukannya orang perasan pun badan aku kini rupa cam papan plywood. Isk isk. At least dulu pun, ada jugak bentuk. Sekarang bentuk badan pun dah hilang. Sedih ah.

Hm. Y.E. ada anual dinner entah bila. Aku lak takde baju yang sesuai. Maklumlah tak pernah pergi prom or function (malas). Ni first time aku risau tentang pakaian. Seumur hidup aku tak pernah ambil kisah. Aku rasa leceh ah weh, terhegeh-hegeh fikir pasal baju ni. Tapi kalau tak fikir plak, nanti aku nampak out of place kat sana. Ish... Menyusahkan betullah. Nasib baek Sarah sudi nak pinjamkan baju dia. Tapi warna pink ah plak. Adehh. Mesti aku nampak gila pelik. Takpe takpe. Tengok dulu rupa baju tu baru decide nak pinjam atau beli. Ohh... Aku baru teringat. Kalau ada dinner-dinner ni, mesti ah kena pakai make up, kan, bagi 'oomph' sikit kat baju tu. Allah... Make up lah pulaaaakkkk... Aku mana ada benda berkimia ni sume... Make up yang aku ada cuma lip balm (its not make up to me, its a necessity as my lips chap easily), lip gloss and bodymist Victoria's Secret (ni pemberian orang, harapan aku nak beli...duit pun takde), er, apalagi ehh.. Oh yeah.. Silkygirl powder yang...alaahhh...yang diorang kata protect dari pancaran matahari tuuu.... UV Protection eh? Alah mamposlah. Haa, tu jelah 'make up' yang aku ada. Compact powder pun aku takde, macam mana aku nak ada blusherlah, eyeshadowlah, apape lagilah... Haiss... Masalah tul..

Aku dah start sakit otak dah ni. Baik aku stop sebelum aku kene merengitis (penyakit sudden rush of shit to the brain). Kalau korang yang takde keje baca blog aku nih ada idea camane aku nak jadi presentable time anual dinner tuh, silalah kemukakan pendapat anda di chatbox sebelah ni.

Adios and arigatogozaimas. :)

Stupidehh

2009-01-17T17:49:00.002+08:00

Blaaagh. This is like, er 2 weeks of school, is it? Or is it 3... Chickenlaa.. I lost track of time. Anyway, I suffered a little this week. I didn't get my SPBT books due to some stupid stupid stupid crappy crappy shitty shitty mistake. So, I couldn't really do my homework. So I kacau-ed some teachers and thankfully, my dear form teacher gave me the books just now in school but she's still short of 5 more books. Oh yeah. We had school today. Cuti berganti stuff. Plus, I hate my class. I really, really, really hate it. I mean, the students are, ok, smart-smart, friendly (I guess), but, the teachers are kinda, no offense, boring. Well, most are. My form teacher is not bad, so is my Biology and Pendidikan Islam teacher. Ustazah Farida Amir memang best. She always makes jokes which are funny berbaur sarcastic. Hahas. We learnt Bio for the first time yesterday. The teacher asked a very very very best question: Kenapa bila kita terpandang orang yang kita suka, jantung kita berdegup kencang? Hehs. I guess I was grinning ear to ear in the lab yesterday.

So. I guess I lost much of my cheerfulness this year. I found less things to be happy about, everyday. I keep getting myself stuck into some lame spat or problem and I had to figure out how to get out of it. The more I tried, the more I get stuck in it.

Misery Is Now My Middle Name

2009-01-08T20:26:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah. Great. I got exactly what I wanted. I wanted to go to Science Stream and study biology. Smack. There in my face. 4 Cekal. I also wanted to study Accounts on my dad's behalf. Smack. There you go, you and Fairuz, study Accounts with a teacher in Taman Melawati. Unfortunately, although Fairuz and I get to study both Biology and Account, we got separate classes. She goes to Azam, I landed in Cekal. But my hati is not cekal enough to accept the fact that I won't be classmates with my best friend anymore. Sob sob. Today is my first day in 4 Cekal but I'm already missing Fairuz so much. I'm not used to being so serious during lessons. And I always chatted or teased Fairuz when there's no teacher in class. Now, all I do is read a comic book and sit alone. Oh sedih sungguh hatiku ini. Fairuz, aku rindu bangat sama kamu! Aku nak sekelas ngan ko lagi! Waaa... Tapi tak apalah. Kita tunggu dan lihat sajalah.

Okie. I wrote down my feelings that I would not write in my journal. So, yeah. I put on a brave face and pretend I'm fine in school. I also preached that in life, you can't expect to have your friends with you at all times. So being in different classes is good practice. I said that to a friend, but, I might as well say it to myself. Gaah!! Stress! I'm outta here.

The saddest part

2009-01-03T20:56:00.003+08:00

This year may not be as promising as I hoped it would. Just when I'm about to free myself from depression, confusion, loneliness and everything a typically disturbed teenager would experience, certain people just mucked it up. A best friend of mine who left me last year to another state is once again, going to leave me; to another country. She left me feeling quite lost and lonely last year, and I didn't go insane thanks to the other girls. Then the hatings and catfights happened. Ridiculous rumours were spread by a certain b****, and my poor poor best friend was at quite a loss on who to believe. For a year she was kept in the dark, and I only recently told her the truth. But I'm still not sure on which side is she on. Well, this year, she's leaving us all and going to Qatar to start a new life. Yeah, I understand that she had to follow her daddy there, but still... I know our text messaging session will soon be over. It is NOT cheap texting people from other countries. But thanks to the World Wide Web and MySpace, there is still hope to keep in touch. But I know, it would be seldom. We were super close in Form 1, then we went to separate classes the following year, we sort of drifted apart a little, but still close. Then came 2008 and she's off to Johor, so we texted occasionally but no longer as often and as frequent as in Form 1. So. I don't know.

And in 2009, another best friend of mine is heartbroken when her best mate is going to another state known as The Rice Bowl of Malaysia. I admit, I understand totally how she feels, yet I couldn't bring myself to comfort her. I just don't know how. I had to cope myself. I had to try to get used to the fact that my other friends are not like Izzaty. They are who they are, they can't try to replace Izzaty, can they? They're all special themselves, I realised. I learnt to appreciate my friends more. I want Mimie to understand that, although Eena won't be around much now, it doesn't mean that she's gone forever. She'll still be close if you appreciate the friendship you both have formed. Nurture it. Call her sometimes. At least she's still here in Malaysia. Don't ever hate her just because she left, that's selfish. You do know the reason why she left, right? You have to understand her situation. You said to me before, friendships always have their obstacles. Well, I'm saying to you, overcome them. And also, no matter how lonely you may feel, you are never alone. You still have other best friends who are willing to ease your pain, even if they can't replace Eena. You'll always have us to fall back on. I know that separation hurts, but, friends come and go. Its only a matter of whether the friendship lasts. Ok?

And this paragraph is for Izzaty, although I know you'll never read it. Ever. But I still hope you do. Aku tahu semenjak dua menjak nih, kita jarang contact. Sama ada sebab sibuk dengan kehidupan harian masing-masing, sebab asyik kekurangan/kehabisan prepaid dan juga sebab perbezaan service provider (kamu Maxis, saya DiGi). MySpace pon, bila layan, kita jarang comment each other, kan. Kalau ko pindah Qatar, aku nak contact ko camane? Hantar surat? Beb, aku punya surat yang aku tulis sebagai balasan surat ko berbulan-bulan sebelum PMR masih dalam simpanan Fairuz. Dia tak lagi tulis-tulis surat untuk ko. Haisss.... Sorry ah. Entah ah. Aku tak tahu ah nak cakap apa. Haha. Aku just takut kita terus lupa each other and stuff. Aku tak nak ah emotional kat blog nih. Malu, orang baca. Haha. Er, apa-apapun, good luck eh, sambung study kat sana. Jangan lak sibuk ngorat mamat Arab macho-macho, hensem-hensem dan sewaktu dengannya. Biar aku yang ngorat. Hahas. Gurau. Aku lagi suka mamat simpanan aku yang suka sangat main badminton nih. Tapi, jangan lupa tau. One day, kita tetap akan jumpa kat KLCC/Pavillion and buat ah reunion sket. Oh yeah. Jangan lupa masuk Girl Guides tau. Aku dan Fairuz akan terus berjuang sebagai Pandu Puteri (haha, semangatlah sangat). So. Aku ketandusan idea. Okie. Babai. :)

Happy New Year!

2009-01-01T21:43:00.004+08:00

Oh yeah. New year, new blog skin, new resolutions, new everythinglah. I love making resolutions. Oh, you bet I do. I just hate following it. I never do. Hahas. So, here are some of my new resolutions, which I won't follow (duhhs):

1) Stop growing underarm hair
2) Stay fit without exercising
3) Become super smart without studying
4) Stay slim by eating tonnes of fatty foods
5) Not touch a single book after school but still finish all the homeworks
6) Be really catty to people yet still liked and loved (this one is plain shitty)
7) Not revising but still pass all exams with flying colours
8) Keep texting my favourite people but never running out of prepaid
9) Never grow a single zit ever again
10) Stay healthy by eating instant noodles everyday

So. Thats it. Happy New Year Resolution-ing, everyone.